The Journey

The New 5-Do-Me

2008-03-26T01:41:00.001-07:00

The 5-do-me is no longer the same

The new owner takes over

I no longer feel what it has been before

I no longer feel the food of love aymore

The people conversation is louder than my favorite music

Where else can I find a new spot where it plays The Way I Feel Tonight, Yellow River, Show Me the Way, Daddy Cool, I Can Dream about You, Street of Fire, 48 Crash, Against the Wind, Still the Same, No Matter what......?

Let it play on. I want my music!

Day 1 at Berlin IFA Show

2007-08-31T19:10:00.000-07:00

What Have I done this year

2007-05-20T22:05:00.000-07:00

Bought a house
Read one book called "The World is flat". (4 more books to go)
I got my BlackBerry cell phone, it was great!
I want to get my Wii soon. Can't wait man'...
Continue drinking as usal. Went to a small bar in Yongher.
Will light up my new house soon.
what else?
Schedule is so tight now to meet the rest of the action items.

The Broadway

2007-04-25T10:03:00.000-07:00

Went to the Broadway at Jing Hwa City with Eric Ma, Cupid and Jodge.
The reason I went there was totally because of the live band there.
Here was what happened at the Broadway
- Too many uncles and auties
- One uncle danced for 30 minutes. He was non-stop dancing man'....!!
- No hot chicks except the Johny Walker's promotion girl
- The band's peformance was superb. No questions about it. They sang the years all for me.
- One bottle of Taiwan beer is NTD400....
- One bottle of Johnny Walker was NTD3200
- The final bill was NTD7200..!!

It is how hard you get hit

2007-04-05T06:35:00.001-07:00

"The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place... and I don´t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently, if you let it. You mean a nobody, u´ll never hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit... It's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward... how much you can take, and keep moving forward. That´s how willing is done. Now, if you know what you worth, go out and get what you worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits. And not pointing fingers saying: You ain´t what you wanna be because of him or her or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain´t you! You´re better than that!"

- Rocky Balboa (Rocky's latest motion pictures)

I saw the Rocky inflight movie while I was on the way back to Taipei.
The last I saw Rocky movie was probbaly in 80s...
It was not as entertained as the previous Rocky movies but I find it more a motivional movie to me. Especially the scripts above struck me when Rocky was saying to his son in the movie
It is very true how much we get hit in life. We shall never say die and give upn easily when facing setbacks. Stay on and find the way to hit back, it will come.

Check the Rocky's speech out at
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1tXhJniSEc

London - King Cross Area

2007-04-03T05:57:00.000-07:00

King Cross is an area I used to know very well. I can even smell the days I commuted back and forth from the St Pancras railway station to Luton.

Hello 'S-hertogenbosh

2007-03-31T05:13:00.000-07:00

Hello Den Bosh (another name of 'S-Hertogenbosh), here I come again after more than 13 years!! I lived in this old city before but I only lasted for 6 months. The railway station changed a lot and must had been remodeled before, so was myself.

Boring Soul

2007-03-25T08:39:00.000-07:00

Dunno why I feel so bored today.
Had lunch with Teresa and Angel in a steam boat restaurant.
After that I just went straight home and went to the bed again until 6pm.
This is how I spent my the entire Sunday.
Went to a snall bar neary by my house. Still, I feel bored.

rainny saturday night

2007-03-24T11:47:00.000-07:00

Commitment

2007-03-16T01:52:00.000-07:00

Just feeling kind of depressed today. Mostly it is attributed to the down payment. I am now commited to buying a house but I dunno why I dun feel happy. I am feeling as though my freedom is gone.
It is easy for me to commit to my job. I can work 7 days a week like crazy. But, somehow I feel kind of sluggish to commit to something that can stay and forever or take my freedom away.
It is not a good sign I keep feeling this way. It is time up now I gotta learn new life style, and be more responsible for life.

Chicago O'Hare Airport

2007-03-15T13:18:00.000-07:00

This is the vending machine found in Chicago O'Hare airport. This is a iPod vending machine!

Man'...Bang & Olufsen headset in the vending machine!

PIER 39, San Francisco

2007-03-10T17:06:00.000-08:00

Young Kids in performance

A Corner view of Pier 39

How to make good use of coffee maker?

2007-03-08T21:12:00.000-08:00

This is how I boiled the instant noodle with hotel coffee maker in the Fremont's Holiday Inn.

When you get hungry during the mid night, there is no way you can go eat outside like you do in Taipei....You do whatever you can do in the US like this!

100/120Hz LCD TV

2007-02-22T03:38:00.000-08:00

People are talking about the flat-screen LCD TV these days but I won't want to buy it. I would rather want to wait for the 120Hz LCD TV to surface.
Watching the football match or fast motion picture on the today's 60Hz LCD TV is horrible totally. You see the motion tailing all the time making human eyes so uncomfortable.
On the other hand, 120Hz LCD TV will fix all these tailing problem. What you see is totally crytal-clear motion picture, much better shrapness and focus.
The 120Hz's theory is to double the frame rate to see more sequence of picture frames. In other word, a formation of motion can be inserted with 120 picture frames so the entire picture looks smoother.

If you are a sport fan, or a action film fan, you should wait until the 120Hz LCD TV is ready.
120Hz LCD TV is the future. Buy the future.

2007's Resolution

2006-12-30T06:28:00.000-08:00

I wanna buy a wii
I wanna save at least NTD20,000 from my pay check
I wanna go to fitness center twice a week and keey myself healthy
I wanna keep my weight at 80kgs
I wanna take vacation at the US or an island resort
I wanna buy a house this year
I wanna own a Blackberry
I wanna pray and talk to the God before I go to bed
I wanna talk to strangers
I wanna read 5 books this year (either English or Chinese)
I wanna make my friends smile and laugh
I wanna pay my bill on time not the last min or overdue
I wanna clean up my apartment once a week
I wanna light up my apartment.
I wanna to take breakfast and dinner only (no lunch)
I wanna buy stock
I wanna buy new insurance
Give enthusiasm to everyone
Make others feel important
Give the gift of heart to those in need
Keep trying and keep moving

What else? To be continued

The 2006 x'mas

2006-12-24T08:54:00.000-08:00

Have been so busy that I dun realize the x'mas is already coming until last nite I went to Chia Pa (Pub) that they wanted to charge me extra NTD1000 for the admission because of x'mas. I think My brain has been messed up and damaged seriously in the last several weeks. I also realized my air ticket to fly back to Malaysia is Tuesday instead of Monday. Man'..Fortunately, I dun have to realize this until the airline desk tells me I come to the airport too early!!!Have fun in the X'mas holiday and rock the year 2007.
Remember to shut down the brain for break!

Typhoon is goin to die down

2006-10-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

Have been feeling typhoon for a week, as though it almost turned me up side down again.
I just need few more days, just a bit more days, I will be fine and back to who I used to be....
It hit me enough. It took me days and days, nights and nights to find the pieces back.
The best strategy is to walk away and no turn back.

Another Night

2006-09-30T04:40:00.000-07:00

Tonight was just another night...
Went to the 5-do-me after work at 9:00 pm...
Another three bottles of Taiwan beer
Another pack of cigarette
Still the same, plyaing all my same old songs
Turn the music way down low,Let me see you in the glow.
In the fire light you are shining....
Though it's much too soon to know,
If this love I feel will grow.
Let's take tonight to start out finding....

Where will my heart goes?

Last week in Fremont

2006-09-24T22:06:00.000-07:00

Last week in Fremont, USA.I was there for 10 days. It was fun indeed driving on the highway in the US, especially when the radio was playing your favorite rock music.

My heart is like an open highway
Like Frank, he said, "I did it my way"I pumped up the volume when it was playing Bon Jovi's song - "Living on a Prayer" !!!!Row down the wondow, let the music play and make me feel complete...like Frank did.

Heart of Tyhoon

2006-09-23T07:33:00.000-07:00

Returned home at 5:00am in the morning
Was a bit drunk but exhausted from 5-do-me..

I feel the typhoon is coming to turn me up side down.
I think my heart can take it. I dun look confused anymore.
Let's see.

Be Home

2006-08-28T06:09:00.000-07:00

Went back to my hometown. It was unusual this time.
My passport was almost near to expire. I called the Malaysian Visa office in Taipei and I was told I must go back to Malaysia to renew a new passport if I can't show my Malaysian ID (Damned it, I lost my Malaysian ID...)

This is the top Seller beer in Malaysia - Tiger Beer
You see how special the cup was.
The boss put all the cups in the freezer and have it iced.
Malaysia is hot, and we are so "ice"

To define The Best

2006-07-06T04:52:00.000-07:00

I drink, she drinks. She smokes, I smoke. So, I can really be myself.
She is willing to go Amazon forest with you for vacation. Never complain about mosquito biting her.
She is willing to accompany you driving from Oslo to the end of north boarder, and she never complains about the chilling weather.
We sit beside the window in a small and quiet bar during the heavy typhoon night just like we are together when the world is ending tomorrow morning.
Both listen to the same style of music and understand the meaning behind the lyrics. When it plays "The way I feel tonight", she won't say " 好冷 "
She can cheer you up, zap you back to reality
Both accept who we are and what we are.
Believe in each other
Forgives each other's mistakes
Both Give unconditionally
Makes a difference in your life in positive ways.
Listen to the heart
Tells you the truth when you need to hear it
Explains things you don't understand
Understand you when you don't have to speak out.
Understand you when you need to be alone.
Got it?

Happy with what I am and how I am

2006-06-26T06:02:00.000-07:00

Jogging Under the Moon Night

2006-05-22T09:52:00.000-07:00

Free the body
It was a mid night jogging
The climate was cool, the rain stopped.
Got home from the office at 11:00pm
Feeling really great
want to be this way and feel the greatness all the time :-)

You will never know

2006-05-19T23:27:00.000-07:00

You will never know how I had gone thru this...
You will never understand a thing.

I will wanna tell you may be some days or forever stay in my heart

No longer the same

2006-05-19T23:16:00.000-07:00

It has been a very long while since the typhoon day last year

I waited for her outside the BW pub.
I thought she won't be on time or SMS me she could not come (dunno why I can't trust)
but she showed up (kind of surprised me)
Seeing her in the taxi even much surprised me!!
She looked a bit old, and with no energy.
Her face changed.
No longer the same one I used to know
She tried to use all means to make up herself.
Still, I felt that there was no peace in her heart.

Moment of silence

2006-05-07T07:59:00.000-07:00

Have been a good boy in the weekend.
Stay home, let my mind totally free and enjoyed the moment of silence.

Damaged

2006-05-05T08:38:00.000-07:00

Had I been damaged myself...?
Probbaly, partially yes.

But, I am back to who I used to be, back to where I belong
I m feeling great right now.

Feeling of the past

2006-03-19T10:44:00.000-08:00

I like to listen to the old songs from 60s, 70s and 80s
when it plays along, it leads me back to the feeling of the past
The feeling of the past was so true, honest and simple
But I can't go back to that feeling anymore
I can't feel that feeling anymore in the real world.
because I am no longer the same person anymore as before.
because I have changed.

Leaving

2006-03-13T06:49:00.000-08:00

I am leaving my place I used to work hard and I used to commit myself
It is no longer the same as what it was since last year
Time is up, I gotta step out of the court and depart.
This Thursday will be the last day at Proton.

I will still tell people I am still respecting Proton as a brand so much, and even Americans recognizes Proton as a mighty brand with the best in class picture performance comparable to Sony or better.......

Proton was the fisrt
- to invent the clock radio in the US
- Change the TV casing to plastic materials and black color setting examples for Japanese TV makers to follow.

五斗米

2006-03-12T01:29:00.000-08:00

五斗米 is a small bar in Taipei city near to Ming Shen East Road section 5.
It is a small bar so small that they only have seats for about 10 people.
The bar owner is a 70s guy with an artist background, all the music he plays threr are
70s - America, Clash, Blondie, Eric Captain, Rolling Stones...
Of course, he does have my 60s and 80s favorites too.

Mark Daniel, the VP of operation at Cident Entertainment.
A business frind of mine.
He was so high when the bar owner was playing
the Wing's "Band on the Run", reminding him
the tennis tournamnet in university in 70s.

One Friday night with Mark Daniel... He used his
Palm Cell Phone to take the photo of me.
The guy behind me in the phone was the bar owner
who was playing our songs.

Susie and Joe

2006-03-04T22:52:00.000-08:00

I always admire Susie and Joe. They always show up together in the restaurant or in the pub...they drink together, have common topics, have same things to enjoy life, have common understandings and more importantly they have the mentality in common.
Last night Susie called me and invited to the BW pub.

I went there, I did not see Joe but just Susie's friends.
Susie said, " Joe is on business trip"...

For some reasons, may be because of the sad song played by the band.
she suddenly cried...
cried very badly
Her friends all hugged her, trying to comfort her
She seemed to lose her emotion
tears rolled over her cheek, completely ruining her make up
"It must be someting" I wondered.

At about 12, Susie was quite drunk, and her friends decide to send her home
I was with her outside the pub, hauling a taxi for her
She hugged on me again crying in my arm
I said " you better take care, Susie"
"you know what happened.." she replied
"It must be someting", I replied
"we broke up." Said Susie

Sim and LoGu

2006-02-02T10:52:00.000-08:00

Woke up by the annoying phone's rings this morining...
Thinking it must be some calls from my sister
walked down to the living room without even washing my face

Someone was already in the living room waiting for me
oh..it was a frind of mine whom I have not seen for more than 8 years
He was used to be my house-mate in the US.....and a good friend of mine in Singapore
I have been actaully trying to search for his whereabouts all these years and wonder if he is fine.
and he appeared today all of a sudden....
It was kind of wonderful moment to see an old chap whom you have seen for so many years suddenly showed up.

The afternoon I called LoGu, my play-mate during my childhood...we used to play football together or swam in the river side together....that was about more than 20 yaers ago...!!
I only met Logu once a year....only when I was back during the Chinese New year....

Memory fading away

2006-01-29T06:55:00.000-08:00

Have been back to home since Friday for CNY break.
Hang around the downtown in the evening with my brother, trying to catch up my past memory here
But I can't....
The downtown was changed with more new buildings and complexs.
Passed by the old shops but my memory become fuzzy.
My memory at home seemed to be fading away.....
Even my bed room's layout has been changed, it is no longer the same as last year's.

Appreciate Everything

2006-01-18T06:51:00.000-08:00

Appreciating Everything
Appreciate those who have hurt you, because they strengthen your heart
Appreciate those who deceive you, because they improve your wisdom
Appreciate those who slander against you, because they improve your personality
Appreciate those who whip you because they arouse your will to fight
Appreciate those who abandon you, because they teach you independence
Appreciate those who make you stumble, because they strengthen your legs
Appreciate those who denounce you, because they remind you of your shortcomings
Appreciate those who give you strength

some long ways

2006-01-17T08:31:00.000-08:00

Since the night I got back from Las Vegas, I have been feeling mentally and physically tired except I felt a bit relaxed in the weekend. Went to the Carnegie pub last Friday night with Yumei. What heppened? Seemed like more people are capable of releasing iteslf free!

Today spent long hours to review all the sales numbers until March....wondering if the numbers are achievable or not......

Have given a thought what I should take.....
Things will always work out if you do what you want without worrying about the consequences.
It is time to look at myself

Shxx happened

2006-01-10T07:42:00.000-08:00

My flight was 6:00 am in the morning flying from Las Vegas to San Francisco, and then another flight from San Francisco to Taipei at 1150.

Before I checked out the hotel at 3:00am, I met Mark Perry in my hotel at 11:00 pm and we started drinking and drinking afterward with Mark’s associates (Miya, Reed, Ed) as well.
We drank beer and then wild Turkey which is one of the stronger Whisky in the US. The alcohol is about 50%.
We really had fun and I felt it was really a pity that I gotta go at 3:00am. Otherwise, we may keep on drinking and fun until the sun comes out…..Anyway, I still gotta go and was drunk all the way to the airport.

So checked in baggage and got my boarding tickets in order. Went thru the security check line and I reached the departure gate No.39. Every step went well and smoothly.
I sat on one chair near to the departure gate but it was still too early. I closed my eyes, wanting to take a nap because I was damned drunk and sleepy (never slept enough all these days in Las Vegas)

THEN……………………………….after 2 hours later

I woke up then from the nap. Oh, boy …it was already 7am and my 6:00am’s flight was gone!!!!! In other word, I will miss my international flight to go back home at San Francisco.
I could not believe how the hell this happened to me? I already got myself in the departure gate on time early….AND I STILL MISSED THE FLIGHT?

I went to the United Airline departure counter, in despair and panic, and explained all the shxx that happened to me….fortunately; they still give me a boarding pass for the 9:00AM flight….but they took away my other boarding pass for San Francisco to Taipei.

Arrived in San Francisco at 10:00AM….I just ran in full speed with my “heavy laptop” at my back to the United Airline’s customer service counter as though I was participating in the Olympic 100m competition because I only have 1 hr and 50 min left. (because you never know if UA will just cancel my seats and gave it to someone else)

Thank God the United Airline customer service gave me the boarding pass again to get on board the 11:50am flight. Can this be one of the best moments in life??

………………………………………………………………..

Edwin Transits at
Nagoya airport’s departure gate
5:50PM
Eyes Open on my 6:45pm flight to Taipei

Day 5 Las Vegas

2006-01-07T22:27:00.000-08:00

Overslept today. Was supposed to wake up at 7:00am but woke up at 8:00am.
Rushed to the covention center without taking my breakfast....
Had three meetings today...when I finished the meeting, realized I have forgotten to take my lunch.....Hmmm....no wonder I am feeling a bit "lighter".....

Walking back to Monte Carlo after the BIG BUFFET DINNER (I promised I wanted to treat myself nicely....

Look Tired......
Taken myself while waking back to my room 12308

Adios

Day 4 at Las Vegas

2006-01-07T01:47:00.000-08:00

Taken outside my hotel

Day 2 in Las Vegas

2006-01-04T21:02:00.000-08:00

Woke up late today.
I arrived in Las Vegas yesterday but also stayed up late replying emails back to co-workers until 2am in the morning.
Just went to convention center and took a look at the booth setup. This time ecerything seemed to be organized, productive and accordingly....units are all up and running well.

Did not eat my lunch because the only restaurant in the convention center is just selling Pizza and cold sandwishes. And, I think of Yumei....how can she live in Italy for so many years just eating those Pizzas and sandwishes....? How can she survive that???

Met Dennis Gentles in the dinner....Both of us were not so sure what to eat....I told him I have not eat the Chinese Food for the last 70 hrs....My answer was clear message !! So we both went in a Chinese restaurant in the hotel....well, we ordered BBQ Rib, vegetable, Sweet n Sour Pork (for Dennis) and shrimps.....Not that good but I appreciated it to feel me something I am more familiar with.

Here I come, Monte Carlo

New Jersey 95, Miami 88

2005-12-25T08:50:00.000-08:00

"All day I've been watching TV and they were mentioning the Christmas Day game without mentioning they had a game tonight, or to watch the Nets," said Carter, whose team leapfrogged Philadelphia and took a half-game lead in the Atlantic Division. "We're just trying to earn respect."

Vince Carter

Kindergarten Certificate

2005-12-20T19:54:00.000-08:00

A Different Christmas

2005-12-20T05:36:00.000-08:00

To be honest, it is very unusual for me to live without the feel of Christmas in Taiwan these few years esp after Constitution day was terminated by DPP. Can you imagine how bad I feel we gotta go to work on 12/25 last year...Customers all gone for vacation while I was sitting in the office and got nothing to do???

The reason I feel odd is because I have been grown up for many many years in places (Malaysia, Singapore, the US) where you can feel the Christmas atmosphere everyhere.
I remembered at this time in Singapore almost the entire Orchard road was fully decorated with big x'mas trees and light bulbs all around each shopping malls.

In Taiwan, I dun see the streets with decoration or the shops with Christmas trees or light.
I seldom heard of Christmas songs or not at all being played from the radio.People still talk about the expensive Christmas dinner with your love ones or talk about the crazy parties. (in the US, people all go back homes to reunion with their family members)
How many of those really understand what are they celebrating for in Taiwan?

Like Mr.Garrison said, in case you have not noticed, it is Jessus' birthday on 12/25.

In case you dunno who is Mr.Garrison, Google it and type the key words "South Park"

In search of best moments in life

2005-12-18T02:32:00.000-08:00

Asked Yummy can she think of her best moment in life...
She paused for a few seconds, tring to think hard....
"falling in love and having a baby" she replied.
"that's it, just two ?", I said
She tried to think again and think hard......
"hhmmmm"......

Well, it seemed like all of us
- are lacking of best moments in life
- missing the best parts in life (including myself)
- just overlooked the best moments in life (including myself)

Christina said one of the best mements in life is getting married...
Well, I think this does not work for me (at least for all men, may be all women on earthwill condemn me)
However, I think what is more import is - I will say I do.
Right?

Tiring Week

2005-12-16T22:31:00.000-08:00

This entire week almost turned me up side down! Spent every min and second, always worked until mid0night, trying to complete all the sales number and new product requirements for 2006 business plan, all of these are required to present in Monday's Q4 meeting....Worse thing was - Dad was in Taiwan visited me. In the meanwhile, I have to take care of him and spend sometimes with him (just realized how difficult to be a good son....)

The days eventually ended yesterday...I told myself I gotta relx and wanted to have a productive Friday night. I went to bed wanting just to take a break at 9:00pm but I woke up next morning at 9:00am...........

Best moment in life

2005-12-12T01:22:00.000-08:00

- Drinking beer with someone special and band singing your favorite songs
- Share your dream with someone special in a nice restaurant when only two of you are there.
- Driving to my favorite pub during the typhoon night because next day must be off-duty
- stay up late at night because you know the next day is holiday
- The radio plays your favorite song all of a sudden
- passing your final exam
- receiving a call from someone you haven't seen in years
- Received greeting from friends on the MSN
- Received greeting cards
- listening to that song that reminds you of that 'special person'
- finding money in jeans you didn't wear since last year
- hearing accientally that someone is saying something nice about you
- See the first snowfall
- First kiss
- feeling butterflies on your stomach
- Falling in love
- To love and to be loved

Right and Wrong

2005-12-11T08:19:00.000-08:00

There is definitely a line to judge what is right and wrong, definitely there is no blur line in between the two deeds.

We always lack of wisdom to judge what is right and what is wrong in life in terms of our behavior, mentality, emotion, decision, human interaction and etc.

In some occasions, we all know that is wrong but we still choose the path of wrong doing because we always like to do things by our own pleasure and likeness.

Sugar Star

2005-12-08T20:18:00.000-08:00

Went to BW last night for a drink at about 11:00pm...Just ordered one cup of Vodka. That's it.
The reason I always prefer to drop by is because the pub has few people in Thusrday's night.
When you sit alone while drinking and listening to the old songs is very joyful

The band came and finally they settled down their name. They called themselves "Sugar Star".
The 1st song they performed was Mr. Postman and the second one is Time after time.... Hmmm'..Not bad, it turned me on.....But, the best is yet to come.

Entering the last section of the night, the band started to ask the audience what songs they wanted to listen...everyone kept quiet. So I stepped up and ordered a few songs for the band. I never expected the band can sing them. The songs I ordered are lady in Red, Love is love, Angel baby, and etc....To my surprised, the band knew all those songs.
When the melody of The Lady in Red begun,
It was one of the best moment in life when someone played a song exclusively for you.
I love it!

Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia

2005-12-02T20:00:00.000-08:00

Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia - Charles Schulz

Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night." - Charlie Brown in Peanuts

That's the secret to life... replace one worry with another.... - Charlie Brown in Peanuts

My life has no purpose, no direction, no aim, no meaning, and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out. What am I doing right? - Charlie Brown in Peanuts

Charles Schultz is the creator of the "Peanuts" comic strip. I especially like the 1st quote from Charles....

Charlie Brown

Dark Age

2005-11-28T23:31:00.000-08:00

Spent most of my time at home all these days without going anywhere else except my sister was in Taiwan last week....Still coughed today and felt dizzy (probbaly my blood pressure ran high).
Never expect I coughed for almost a month, I have been reducing the amount of smoking and have not been drinking any drop of Taiwan beer...Oh, I am growing "bigger and bigger" these days after I tried to kick my cigarettes ....Life has become nothing but a dark age to me.

Dancing in the rain

2005-11-23T00:43:00.000-08:00

life isn't all about waiting for the storm to stop. its about learning to dance freely in the rain.

Close Your Eyes

2005-11-12T20:30:00.000-08:00

"You can close your eyes to things you don't
want to see, but you can't close your heart to
the things you don't want to feel."

2005-11-11T09:13:00.000-08:00

Came to the office feeling pretty good, thinking I may have recovered from the illness.
Who knows after a couple of hours I started to cough again and again...
I guessed the air quality in my office was not that good. Actually a lot co-workers seemed to have gotten cold too...
I decided to take a half day off again in the afternoon.

I went to the bed at 2:00pm....trying to rest as much as possible...
Usually the more I rest, the faster I can get better
but not this time anymore....my body doesn't liesten anymore
Probbaly it was because I took too many anti-biotics in Taiwan given by the doctors...

I coughed badly until the evening.....
I took the shower at 11:00pm....thinking I should go to the bed right away...
wait a minutes! Today is Serena's birthday
So, I decided to go to BW pub to see if she was there....

Serena was in BW pub with her co-workers....
She dressed up beautifully...!!!
It was probbaly my 1st time to see her dressing up like this...
It made me to take a second look at her...(her hair style, her shoes....her black clothe...)
I am glad that she got friends herself to cebrate her B-day.

Very Sick

2005-11-09T23:08:00.000-08:00

My coughing seemed like getting worse and worse....
Oh boy,....gotta take a day off and go home to rest.
I look really bad today.

2005-11-09T20:12:00.000-08:00

Yesterday Trevor was in Taipei. We met in my office and talked about his new technology goodies - LCD TV with DVB-T integrated for the European market. I was very excited about it simce they will take care of the entire circuit board design as well as the field tests in major cities in Europe.

We then went to my favorite restaurent, 十二鍋 in Taipei. for dinner. I invited HH Chen to come over to join us but he texted me saying he was still busy in the office.....I had been submitted my biz plan to him more than a month but up to now I have not received his feedback yet.

We ordered a bottle of Black Label. We drank the whiskey without adding any ice cubes at all because this is how Scottish people did . If we ask for ice to add to the whiskey, the scottish will be upset and feel we are dispurify the whiskey....we drank almost 3/4 of the whiskey.....that is not the way British did, according to Trevor....!!

Word of the day I learnt from Trevor: I go to bog
It means I want to go restroom.

Housework

2005-11-05T02:59:00.000-08:00

Today just focused on cleaning up my
apartment. Wow....requires quite amount
of effort though....

Mei, the dancing queen

2005-11-04T04:32:00.000-08:00

Nothing special these few days. anyway it is friday...
Wentv to my usuakl place. BW pub...
Drabk two and a half og Taiwan beer and two cups of whiskey...
Think i am kind of drunk aqt the time of wroring....
Tonight was great....Mei and Riki performed wonderfully...
Both sang some of my favorite songs - stand by me, Hot stuff, This love....
mei looked much active andf attractive on the stage than she was under the stage
I think she just expressed her passion of music....she expresesd herself and what she is...(this is the true part of her,,,,,.....) When one is open and careless of how othr people think of het, she is charming...Her locomotion caught everyone's attrntion...Mei is so charming on the stage ! That is what I want to say...

came back home ar 3:30am...met Van on line....we both taled a bit,,,,but I can't hang on anymore, I must go to bed..otherwose, I can't type propwely,,,,../'.lklo

ADIOS

NBA Season Begins

2005-11-02T19:34:00.000-08:00

Yeah, NBA season begins!
I still missed Michael Jordan, the good old time in Carbondale, seeing how Chicago Bull beat Laker 4-1.
It was MJ, who made my life more entertaining and complete.
NBA also set an example for me to learn how to be a person in life.
In the NBA all the best players, must be talented, competitive and gifted are coming to to play for the top competition level. They fight for just one champ every year. The players must learn to be aggressive and stand out among so many players of all classes. It also let me understand how to turn a lousy team to a playoff team and then eventually to a champ team!!

Although MJ is a gifted player, he still practise free throw, shot around, work out every day!!! He said he worked so hard everyday just becaues he wanted to get himself prepared when entering the next ball game the next day.

"I can accept failure, but I can't accept not trying" - Michael Jordan

"Talent wins games, but teamwork and intelligence wins championships" - Michael Jordan

"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it" - Michael Jordan

I watched Yao Ming in LA 2004

Close your eyes

2005-10-30T07:19:00.000-08:00

The best things in life can not be seen.
That's why we close our eyes when we kiss, dream and pray.
Use the heart to feel it.

Cident

2005-10-29T03:05:00.000-07:00

Mark Daniel came from the US and visited me yesterday...He was really upset because we no longer are trying to support the Xilleon-based STB product. It is a major setback to Mark. It is all due to the management's silly decision. I felt bad too, asw we have been working on this project for more than a year and we are almost near to the completion.
Hosted him a dinner at BW last night, making him feeling slightly better with Vodka. We had really a nice chat about everything except the STB. I was amazed to learn that Mark used to work in arospace industry many years ag before moving to digital video broadcast field. He did involve in designing and building rockets and satellites, a contract work from Houston NASA.
Mark's company? See http://www.cident.net

My throat got quite a lot better these days but I still went to see the doctor this evening after work. After taking the medicine, I just fell asleep. Slept from 7:30pm and woke up at 12:00am after mid-night.

Downloaded a few new songs of my new favorite to my MP3 player.
1. Stand By Me - Fugges. It is a remix version but it really sound nice and differently than the classic oldies (BB King's or John Lennon's)
2. Lonely - Akon. It is revised version of Roy Orbison's "Only the Lonely" in early 1960s.
3. Volare - Gipsy King. An Italian classic song. Volare means fly. Always heard this song in BW.
4. Duke of Earl - New Edition. A revised version from 1960s.
5. Angel Baby - Mr. Capone-E. A rap version of oldies Angel baby (late 50s)
6. Take a chance on me - Mr. Capone-E.

Behind the scene

2005-10-26T18:19:00.000-07:00

Looked at Roku's web site at http://www.rokulabs.com where there are two interesting products - PhotoBridge and SoundBridge.
PhotoBridge is a product to decode very high resolution photo off the memory cards (Memory stick, SD, CF and etc) and display the photo on high resolution plasma or LCD TV turning your display set to a picture frame. Furthermore, one can insert the memory card containing MP3 songs and playback the MP3 songs from this device.

SoundBride, a hot selling product last year in the US, is a simple wireless MP3 player. It networked with the PC wirelessly. Once connected, the PC can stream the MP3 to this device and playback the MP3 song. So, you dun have to sit infront of your PC and listen to the MP3 from the PC. SoundBride can be sitted in your living room or anywhere in your house as long as your PC is installed with wireless router.

There are a lot of hard work and people behind to make these two products happened. Van, Greg, Vivian, Hiro, myself and etc are the people behind, all of us worked night after night to realize these wonderful products. PhotoBridge was launched in 2003, and SoundBridge in 2004. I belive Van, Vivian, though had departed, should feel proud of these two products.

Where, when, how

2005-10-25T23:24:00.000-07:00

Teresa asked me today if I will settle down myself in Taiwan forever?
This kind of questions have been asked by many friends frequently..
My answer is always no - I won't settle myself down in Taiwan
I will probbaly go to the US
However, I have been giving this answer and to myself many time...
What is next? Where is next....and when???
I gotta be calm down and re-think about this question again seriously
I have been staying in Taiwan more than 13 years
Should I still go on like this as it...??? Or should I take a real action?

Sometimes what you try to plan always will not turn out the way you want to be.
I never thought I will come to Taiwan but I did
I never thought I will travel to so many countries but I did
I thought I will be a R&D engineer dedicated to scientifc research but I did not...
I thought I would have settled in The Netherland but I decided to come back
I thought I can find a good job in Singapore but I still got a better job in Taiwan.....

Sunday

2005-10-23T11:49:00.000-07:00

Went to BW pub at mid-night last night thinking I won't stay too long there....but I ended up there until 4:00am in the morning. I thought one bottle of Taiwan beer would be enough but I ended up spending another NTD2,000 on having another Absolut Vodka....In fact, the vodka made my throat feeling much better and ease.

I did not enjoy the music either from the band and the DJ. Yummy complained to the DJ she was alsmost getting headache because of all the eletronic music knocking her head so badly...I almost felt the same way and almost wanted to get off....finally the DJ silent the pub with Bee Gee's "How deep is your love"...(DJ, Hurray, well done!!)
Probbaly no one know there was another very younger brother called Andy Gibb from the Bee Gee family. He used to sing solo. Andy Gibb's two greatest hits were " I just want to be your everything" and " Love is thicker than water"....Andy Gibb died at the young age of 30 in 1988. I remembered I read this news from a newspaper in the US. The news even reported that Bee Gees' family blocked Andy Gibb's ex-girlfriend, Victoria Principal, from entering the church for the funeral ceremony....becaues Bee Gees' family all blamed the toria for Andy Gibb's death....Since Victoria jumpshipped to love another guy (Andy's best friend), Andy Gibb's whloe life changed and turned to alcohol and drugs (probbaly he was too sad and can't get over) in order to ease its emotion...That was why Bee Gees family all pointed the fingers to Victoria.
Well, just listen to Andy Gibb's love songs will get people understand how he felt upon love and what love means to him.....

Did not try to work hard today Sunday...just tried to be lazy and relax.....sat on the sofa while pressing the channel buttons up and down, back and forth from the TV remote control...(women always hate this)...but in the evening I would rather become a good guy, a house keeper. Organize my clothes, iron them and hang them in the cabinet in order and accordingly. I also cleaned up the floor a little bit...It took me about 2 hours to do all these house work.

Peaceful Friday Night

2005-10-21T12:16:00.000-07:00

Got a dinner gathering tonight with some of my co-workers, some of whom have already resigned and some are going to quit soon by next year....We should have a strong team to stand on the world arena but someone just came and spolied everyone and offended everyone.

I reached BW pub at 11:00pm but already felt very tired. I sat infront of the bar-table and dun feel like speaking that much tonight....what is more, Riki and Mei tonight's songs did not turn me on either.

Got back home at 1:30am in the morning. Hooked on the internet and found Vincent on MSN IM, Armando Lopez on Google Talk IM and Van Krueger on Yahoo IM. Man'...why we have so many IM(s)...I hope MS, Yahoo and Google should come out an universal IM version to make our life and communication easy....

Got a sore-throat for about 2 weeks. It is not serious but it is just dragging me down. I have not jogged for about a month.....

Hotel California Intepretation

2005-10-20T21:43:00.000-07:00

This is one portion of Hotel California's lyrics

So I called up the Captain,
'Please bring me my wine'
He said, 'We haven't had that spirit here
Since nineteen sixty nine'
And still those voices are calling from far away,
Wake you up in the middle of the night
Just to hear them say...

I used to think the above lyrics were refering to the spirit of "Woodstock", which was the largest music concert ever in our mankind in 1969 to call the world's attention of love, peace, anti-war and freedom. California is always the most liberal state in the entire US. Free speech and self-expression are so liberal in California. That prompted me to think Woodstock is the spirit Eagle was talking about behind the lyrics.

Someone on the internet gave a better interpretation. It is a basically a song of Satan: In 1965 Anton Levy founded the Satanist church in California. "Called up to the captan, please bring me my Wine, we haven't had that spirit here since 1969". Wine is of course associated with cummunion. In 1969 Levy purchased an old church and turned it into the satanists church headquarters. Glenn Frey and a few other band members, I think Henley was one, were known to frequent this church. Anton Levey is pictured standing in the balcony on the inside album cover.
Who is Anton Levy? http://www.answers.com/topic/anton-lavey

Someone said it is about drug and addiction.

Last thing I remember, I was
Running for the door
I had to find the passage back
To the place I was before
'Relax,' said the night man,
We are programmed to receive.
You can checkout any time you like,
but you can never leave!

"You can checkout any time you like, but you can never leave!" You can always say you aren't addicted or that you can quit anytime you want, but you'll always end up going back to them.

Personally I think Hotel California is approprite refering to the song of satanist....

Sipadan Island

2005-10-19T03:03:00.000-07:00

About ten years ago when I introduced myself where I came from, a lot of people could not recognize where Sabah is as though they never heard of it in their entire whole life....but nowadays more and more people are aware of its whereabout and many people are going there for taking vacation. A lot friends of mine who visited Sabah all told me Sabah is a paradise .....I feel kind of embarrased because, though I have been traveled to so many countries, I never took vacation or took a serious look at theose famous tourist spots like Sipadan Island.
Sipadan is not far at all from my hometown. I think it takes about less than 2 hrs to reach Sipadan by boat...It is so easy to get there but I never try to go there......instead, I have been made it to travel to other counties more than thousand miles away from my howetown....

Heineken's Commercial

2005-10-18T22:47:00.000-07:00

Heineken used to have pretty good TV commercials all the time. These two days, Heineken has another brand new commecial with the song called "I only want to be with you" as the background music. It is about a magician trying to steal the Heineken beer from an audience....but the audience still hold on the beer in its hand, refusing to give way.
I liked this song very much. The first time I heard of this song was 1988 while I was watching its MTV in the US. (I was an university student at that time)
I thught this song was poineered by Samantha Fox, a very sexy figure from Great Briatain.

Until recently three months ago a co-worker of mine recomended me Bay City Rollers, a rock/pop band of the 1970s. My friend is a 1970s-Freak. So I gave it a try and I then realized they were actually the ones who pioneered this song, "I only want to be with you"
I like Bay City Rollers' version because it tasted more natural and origin. Samantha's also sounds not bad because the song was performed with much improved modern instruments.
Both have its own styles and uniqueness.

So I started to find out more about Bay City Rollers and what else good stuff they had in the past. http://www.classicbands.com/rollers.html

After my research, I was very delighted that Bay City Rollers also had another fantastic song called "The way I feel tonight". Man'....It is slow song but so sentimental and touching !

Desperado

2005-10-17T21:32:00.000-07:00

The first time I heard of Eagle's "Desperado" was 1985 while I was studying my secondary school in Singapore. A friend introduced Eagle's songs to me. However, I always found that Eagle's song lyrics were not easy to understand esp the "Hotel California" (drug addiction, song of Satan or Woodstock..?)
While I was listening to the Desperado tonight from my PC, all of sudden, my mind woke up! I started to understand what the song was trying to tell....

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
(Desperado, why can't you still understand..?)
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
(You have been fencing yourself or been indepdent for so long...)
Oh, you're a hard one
(oh, you are a stubborn person)
I know that you got your reasons
( I understand you have your own reasons why you lockup yourself...")
These things that are pleasin' you
(What you have been doing now is so joyful and pleasant and no restriction)
Can hurt you somehow
(but all the present pleasure and joy will hurt you one day. You will regret)

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet
(not sure if I understand these phases but let me say this wey: you are always looking for someone with outlook and beauty only but not someone with true heart and true love...)

Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
(there are some nice girls crossing to you.....)
But you only want the ones that you can't get
(but you always want to get someone who are not realistic......)

Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
(hey you are not young anymore...dun waste your time anymore)
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
(every people said personal freedom is more important....but that is not true yet)
Your prison is walking through this world all alone
(you actually prisioned your own personal freedom only....)

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're losin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?
(when you run into problem, will you feel lonely by yourself dealing with the problems and no one you can share....?)

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
(Desperado, why can't you understand..?)
Come down from your fences, open the gate
(break the fences inside your world, open your heart...)
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
(Thought you had been hurt and heart broken before, you will be chrished soon..)
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late
(don't be afraid. Just fall in love...)

Hmmm....it seemed like this song was talking to me also. My heart is like a desperado traveling from one place to another place.
Desperado was defined as person who wants to be alone enjoying its personal joy, had been heart broken before and never wanted to fall in love again.

Tommy, Gina, Frank and Bon Jovi's "It is my life"

2005-10-15T03:25:00.000-07:00

I found that many people in Taiwan are not aware of the interesting
lyrics of Bon Jovi's "It's my Life" There are three people behind this
lyrics : Frank, Tommy and Gina. It seemed like many people
dunno who they were and why they appeared in the lyrics and  how
these three were associated to the It's My Life. Frank is actually
Frank Sinatra, one of the greatest artists of all time. Frank Sinatra had
a song called " My Way" in which the lyrics had been written as
follows:

I traveled each and ev'ry highway
And more, much more than this, 
I did it my way

Bon Jovi simply borrowed the script " I did it my way" from Frank Sinatra

and used it in his own song, in which you can hear the sentence

"....Like Frank said, I did it my way....."

Then come to Tommy and Gina. Bon Jovi had another great song
called "Living on a Prayer".....this song lyrics was  about a story of
Tommy and Gina and the difficult life they went thru. Under such a
difficult life, they still believe in true love and fight on and never back
down. It is their life! Basically, Living on a prayer and It is My Life
are associated to each other.


It is My Life
This ain't a song for the broken hearted
A silent prayer for faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
But I ain't going to live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frank, he said "I did it my way" 

I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never back down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistakes
Luck, it ain't enough, you gotta make your own breaks

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't going to live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frank, he said "I did it my way"
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life

Better stand tall when it's calling you out Don't
bend, don't break
baby, don't back down

It's my life
It's now or never
'Cause I ain't going to live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frank, he said "I did it my way"
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't going to live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frank, he said "I did it my way"
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life

Face

2005-10-13T19:21:00.000-07:00

Yummy has looked at this photo in my previous post. She wondered why I looked so blue, confused, puzzled, lost, down, upset, lamented, lonely, frustrated, empty, despair, broken.....
When I looked at this photo again, yeah, it was how I felt that night, the night she was there.
She probably never know how down I was that night.

Big Picture

2005-10-12T23:34:00.000-07:00

My Big Picture Biz plan is finally completed. Emailed to my VC friend the other days. Hopefully I can get some feedback from him. Though it was only a one year plan, I very much like the way I constructed my business plan. Everytime I looked at it, I felt really good and accomplished. This is a plan about strating up a new company to develop and promote the LCD TV in Europe, where HDTV is taking off seriously. My vision is to create a brand recognition by innovating the products with sexy look, high picture performance and high integration. See the three icons there??? It represents "Play", "Power on" and "Fast Forward", they can be seen from most of the audio players' buttons. I haven't thought of the brand yet.....
Still, it is still a long way off before I can find the right funding....

Walking along the Breeze

2005-10-10T21:42:00.000-07:00

Met Dr.Kuo last night and he proposed we should have a go-out togrther under sunny day (We all have too much moonlight life). So we decided to go to Guandu Natural park as I have not been there yet since I arrived in Taiwan
Dr.Kuo, Catherine, my brother, Liu Ping, Liu Ping's sisters and myself met at one MRT station somewhere near to Guandu park. We then walked from the MRT station all the way to Guandu temple. Well, it took us about more than one hr to get there. It was not an easy journey. The sun was not sunny but rather windy, and it rained a little bit for few minutes. I saw some birds flying in the sky.....and I wonder will it be too risky to get bird flu....????

She is not there....

2005-10-08T21:48:00.000-07:00

Last night in BW pub I just found out from Riki, whom we meet every Friday night , was used to be the classmate of my ex-girl in university....gee, what a small world man'..!!!

I did not hang out too late in BW because I have been feeling very tired mentally and physically since this Monday because of writing my BIG PICTURE buisness plan. Today was my 5th day in BW.
Came back home at 2:00am...opened my Yahoo IM and met Van, an old chap who resigned from Roku recentlt. We both had interesting chat on the Yahoo IM.

Did not do anything today but checking only the Netherland national train's timetables on the internet.
For instance:
Amsterdam to Utrecht is only 33 min. Fare is less than 10 euro
Amsterdam to S-Hertogenbosch is about 1hr, fare is 12 euro
(I lived in S-hertogenbosch before for about 6 months there....)
Amsterdam to Hannover, Germany is 4 hrs, fare is 92 euro...
Amsterdam to Dusseldoef, Germany is 2 hrs, fare is 65 euro

Amsterdam to London via air cost only USD112.00...(pretty cheap)

Went to office and print all the travel info....thinking the hard copy should be easy for her to read.

I thought she would be free tonight but she texted me at 9:00pm that she did not feel well...so she could not come to meet...hmmm.....well, I kind of expected it things like this will happen from her. But, I started feeling blue again.
I was in the BW pub but I dun think I enjoyed the live band's music......
Everything seemed not right....

So I left and went to La Noches, where Spencer and my briother were waiting for me there.
This was how I looked after La Coches.....I drank very drunk.....

.....Yeah...almost done my BIG PICTURE

2005-10-04T23:13:00.000-07:00

Spent the whole night in the BW pub writing my BIG PICTURE plan under noisy music tonight. Hmmm....dunno why the waiter seemed to think the customers always like this kind of music in the pub...!! They should play my CD. Anyway, I focused very much on my BIG PICTURE and am glad that I almost come up all the right numbers. The next steps is to think of more creative ideas about my marketing 4P. Hope to get it done before this Friday so I can present the plan to the venture capitalist friend.

Product = Sexy industrial design + High Picture performance + High integration, where

Sexy industrial design - Yes, very very sexy look so consumers will say "Wow....that is cool"...
High Picture performance - amazing picture quality comparable to Sony's and better than LG, Samsung
High Integration - to integrate proven DVB-T tuner (with MHEG-5 or Digital Teletext) or wi-fi DMA function.

I think in order to design a sexy look will probbaly cost USD80,000 per model. The design work will be done in foreign firms in Europe.

I dun try to compete with the cheap brands like Teco, Sampo, Benq or Chian xxx brands....BUT only SONY.
If Sony responds, then we get noticeble in the market. "Sorry Sony"

Slogan: Better than somebody?

Typhoon night eve

2005-10-01T12:16:00.000-07:00

This is the 3rd typhoon of the year. This typhoon was named "king of the dragons"..

I was in the BW tonight. I dunno why I just dun feel like talking to anyone even Serena was there. Idun enjoy the band's music either but just want to be alone and just talked to my own heart. Probably because of
1. DGTEC's issue - they still want to return the 37" LCD TVs back to us
2. Big Picture's progress is slow...there are still a lot of work to do in order to make it a good plan.

Great quotations

2005-09-29T19:40:00.000-07:00

Life is too short

2005-09-28T23:17:00.000-07:00

Laugh when you can,
apologize when you should,
and let go of what you can't change.

Work hard
Drink quickly
Kiss slowly,
play hard,
forgive quickly,
take chances,
give everything
Have fun
and have no regrets.

Life's too short to be anything…but smile, laugh and happy.

Respect and disrespect

2005-09-27T23:42:00.000-07:00

I dunno why someone is so selfish and arrogant. How can he used such a bad language as "trash" to offense someone who left the company. If he disrespects people in such a way, how can he gains respect from other people? I started to pay no respect to him. Totally intolerant of him anymore.
No wonder Darwin and Leon who had been worked with him in the US all disliked him.

BIG PICTURE branding

2005-09-25T17:44:00.000-07:00

Today I almost finished my BIG PICTURE project. Though I already came up the cash flow, still realized it was required to fine-tuned because I has not taken the materials' lead time into account. What it surprised me was - I may only require NTD40.0-NTD50.0 milion as my seed money to start up the buisness.
I am still thinking of what brand to use on the product...MarkII, MAC2, Za5, CoCoon, MAXI, Madison, 16X9, Woodrow, Calvin, Wilson,.....????

Associates and Friday Night

2005-09-24T17:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday two associates of mine are departing so we got a good-bye dinner party in a restaurant in PanChiao. They were quite shocked to see I was like another totally different person outside the office. In the office, people see me like a good boy but outside the office I am rock and roll and that my heart go wild and fun. Actually, I seldom do this way in the past; I always lock my heart up and not to express myself. But now I am a little bit different and it probbaly was because someone had made a difference in my life............

By the way, I performed two songs - "Yesterday once More" and "The moon represent my heart".....I know my singing is terrible. Come on, we have the freedom to sing under the constitutions.
After the dinner, I went straight to the BW pub. Serena and Yummy all showed up there. We got fun, and Riki and Mei had an outstanding performance too though they have not learnt to sing my Elton's John's song. I took a photo of Serena too from my cell phone...she said she didn't like this photo but to me I think she looked very mature and wild, didn't she? She also looked like a woman with a heart in search of something in the darkness. I met her last year probbaly in August. We meet almost once a week in BW pub but somehow there is no one turn on the switch :-)

To be continued my BIG PICTURE

2005-09-22T11:15:00.000-07:00

It is raining outside. I came to the BW pub and continue my Buisness plan (I called it Big Picture)...Actually I have been in the pub two nights ago working on my Big Picture...I spent 3 hours filling in all the budget and forecast numbers in the spreadsheet. The next day I opened my notebook and realized I have forgotten to save my file....!!!!! OHHHHHH Damned it......I think I got too much beer that night!

Tonight so far I completed (and make sure I saved the file)
- payroll
- product development investment cost
- overhead
- revenue forecast
- income statement
I think I am much focused on my work if there is a band singing on the stage. Wendy started (the beautify lady on the stage) the first song, "I hate myself for loving you", and then Alice's "Better man"...

It is time up

2005-09-19T19:29:00.000-07:00

After a long thought, it is time up now to make my decision. I must depart from where I am now. Let me give another shot to start up my dream. It is time to get serious and start wring my biz plan. Let me call this " BIG PICTURE"
This is where and how I started writing my BIG PICTURE, I was in BW pub.

Moon Light eve

2005-09-17T22:54:00.000-07:00

It is said that the moon tonight will be full moon and gotta beautiful. Looking at the night sky from my window, I see no full moon at all. Hello, where is the moon?? Dun let me see you in blue tomorrow night!!!

Went to the BW pub at about 10:30. Met a girl called Garfiled. Yes, no doubt, a cat's name. She is not that kind of very pretty girl but she got the nice shape. The way she made up and the way she dressed up, man'...she looked so spicy and hot. Yummy later on showed up in the pub but I would rather be more interested to buy Yummy a free drink, as Yummy is much more intelligent and interesting lady. See the photo above. She looks not bad, does she?

Long day in the office

2005-09-16T21:16:00.000-07:00

What a long..day..!! Things keep me upside down the entire day. Because of DGTEC, a lot of preparation must be set up and Kevin must be there in Australia by next Monday. Heat sinks, fan coolers, power supplies were finally all air-shipped today.
I called Angel, Teresa, Vivian, Dr Kuo, all of whom were not free tonight. Seemed like today was not my day at all :-(

Carbondale

2005-09-15T00:15:00.000-07:00

Just found some the photos of Carbondale, the lttle town, where I had been studied my university. I came to the Carbondale at the age of 18....I changed my major from mechanical engineering to Electrical engineering.....I met someone special like Angeline, Rita and Li Ming during my four years in Carbondale. 710 bookstore, the Checker pub, West Monrone street, East Colleage, EP Church and etc......
Looking at the photo, especially the campus lake, it reminded me all the good time during the summer in 1988. I used to jog around the campus lake with Big John. I really love to go back to Carbondale if I have a chance. As the matter of fact,I have biz travels to the US every year but I always forget to drop by Carbondale....One day I will go with my love one.

Life without a lover

2005-09-14T02:51:00.000-07:00

Life without a "LOVER" is very very peaceful BUT it can be VERY VERY VERY UN-COLORFUL

Nightmare

2005-09-12T00:54:00.000-07:00

I used to go to a pub named Black Wind in Young-Ho but a friend of mine told me there was another alternative pub named "Amy's Pub" in Young-Ho too. I finally decided to drop by this pub under my friend's instruction to find out. I will be happy if this pub can be a second choice in Young-Ho.

I got off my car. I stood outside the pub (they are in 2F), looking at the stairway. I said " hmmm...it must look like very "American pub" or "Irish pub"...I was getting very excited then.....I walked up quickly to the second floor with smiling face, opened the door...I was taken aback. I saw a group of people (all men) sitting along the long bar-table. Those men spoke in Taiwanese, and their faces looked very "Tai" (台)....and then I saw people singing Taiwanese songs ( well...I do love some Taiwanese songs sometimes) .....but the entire pub just lookd very "Tai" instead of "American style" or "Irish style"...
I shaked my head saying "why the hell I am here???"

Still, the waitress lead me to an available seat. I ordered a Heineken beer (I dunno why I ordered). I drank as fast as I can...empty the bottle and left.
I drive as fast as I can in full speed all the way to the direction of Black Wind pub...I rushed in and I asked for a Whisky immediately. I told the bartender that I wanted to get drunk right away and hope to get up the next day and forget the nightmare.

I feel good

2005-09-10T13:53:00.000-07:00

I think I am feeling good. Have too much beer (about 5 bottles of Taiwan beer) in BW pub....but I knew I was drinking for fun and for the good time with my friends.....My mind is free, my soul is back, my pieces are back to shape, I have nothing to lose and I am not like before any longer. Having 5 bottles of Taiwan beer, I didn;t feel drunk at all. Thanks for all the nights in Black wind pub. This is how I look in the photo. I am smiling. I keep my head up.

Typhoon Night Part II

2005-09-01T23:12:00.000-07:00

Typhoon visited Taiwan again. I called Angel if she wanted to come to BW for a few drink since tomorrow will be typhoon holiday again. She said she could not come because she has been sleepless for two nights already and she badly needed a good sleep......Hmmm....
Okay, I went to BW myself and called Serena. At about mid-night, it started raining cat and dog and getting windy and windy....Serena still came. Of course, I gave her a free ride.
She told me she saw Angel today in the SOGO but this time she saw someone else (a guy), skinny and wearing glasses, was accompanying her....well, without doubt we all guessed that this guy must be her boy friend. Serena remarked that this guy didn't look impressive at all, not outstanding and both were not two of a kind at all. I replied to Serena and I smiled, when love hit you, you can't run and you can't escape no matter what the love quality is....when it happens, it happens. You simply can't explain why. That's the way it is.
Anyway, we all had great night until 4 am. I drank quite a lot too...there were not so many people in BW during this typhoon night. I played my CD and had fun being the DJ myself again.

Typhoon day - Part 1

2005-08-05T23:24:00.000-07:00

Last night I sent a text to Angel from the BW pub during the typhoon night eve....(well, we were supposed to meet somewhere this week for dining) But, she replied me she could not make it. Okay, that is fine to me.

The next day, because of typhoon, we got off-duty. However, the typhoon is not as severe as I thought in Taipei. Rain is not heavy at all but just a little bit of windy. I took my lunch in BW...I duuno how I did it, I picked up my cell phone and then give Angel a call....she picked up but told me she would call me back later. Fine, okay, may be I did not call her at the right time and I dun think and dun expect she will call me back. So I paid the bill and left BW pub. While I was heading to the office, thinking she won't call me again. Suddenly, my cell phone rang. Surprised! It was Angel.

I went home and dressed up myself . We both proposed to meet again in BW at 2:00pm. She showed up at about 3:30pm...This was the first time we met again since 4/3' s night

Well, as usual, I did enjoy chating with her all the time. Until about 6 pm, she proposed that we may go and see movie (deep inside my heart, I wanted to tell her the movie I really wanted to watch was "Terminal")
Anyway, I counter-propsed to her we took dining in my favorite restaurant in Taipei. So we went there.

Nothing really special at all, we finished the dinner and then on the way back to BW in a cab. All of a sudden, her special someone rang her. I dunno what happened but it seemed like her someone special was questioning her whereabout and she felt being bugged....I think she get pissed with her "someone special"who seemed to question her too much.... this was my first time I have ever seen her getting so angry....Holly cow, her face looked terribly scary to me...!!!... I think her "someone special" is so afraid to lose. I really felt sorry for him.
Angel probbaly felt embarrasing too because I was in the middle. So, she decided to leave once we arrived in BW and she left for meeting up her friend - JOJO.
Angel later on called me expressing her embarrasement....Well, I told her frankly it cost me nothing at all and she should not feel sorry or something. Yes, I dun feel negative at all because I have nothing to lose!

199 Days, a long journey

2005-04-25T23:53:00.000-07:00

It had been 199 days. Yes, it's 199 days!! It is a long journey.
During so many nights and days of these 199 days....Beer, music, sad songs, jogging, work-out, friends had been walked me thru. My emotion was like up and down...I lost something but I did gain something. It is fair.
Let the past be passed by..... Never look back.
It is a long journey.

Let's us be

2005-04-24T18:30:00.000-07:00

I must admit we met in the wrong way and at the wrong place.
I have been trying hard to delete our past history off my memory. I dun want to remember any piece of what we did before because I want to respect you as a friend. You said you knew me for more than 2 years....but to me I only knew you starting from this year. I did not count the last two years.
To me, you are just like a brand new person to me.
You said I am your very special friend, Okay, it is fine. I am okay with that.
My wish is - I really want to respect you as a friend regardless what you had done....

She's Like the Wind (from Dirty Dancing)
She's like the wind through my tree
She rides the night next to me
She leads me through moonlight
Only to burn me with the sun
She's taken my heart
But she doesn't know what she's done

Feel her breath on my face
Her body close to me
Can't look in her eyes
She's out of my league
Just a fool to believe
I have anything she needs
She's like the wind

I just want to say

2005-04-23T23:09:00.000-07:00

So, I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me and
you have made a difference in my life,
I look up to you,
respect you, and
truly cherish you

MY B-DAY

2005-04-04T23:49:00.000-07:00

Last night was my B-day
Again I very much looked forward to this day as Angel said she will like to come to my party in Black Wind. She brought her friend, JoJo, who also has the same B-day as mine.
Unfortunately, It turned out not the night I wanted to be,
It was not the night two weeks ago
It seemed like I have to accept the truth
She doesn't belong to me, I just feel it strongly
Though we had slow dance to each other but I just felt her heart was so far away, so far I can't feel anything from her........
Her heart is telling me nothing
Let me face it, boy
Let me get over it, boy
That's the way it is....
She said she felt happy for me because there were so many friends with me....(but I was not at all..!)
I told her I was drunk and needed a fresh air outside the pub....(actually I was not really drunk...)
I walked out the pub myself....standing outside myself....by myself...

It reminded me of a song called "Needles and Pins" from Del Shannon.

 I saw her today, I saw her face
 It was the face I loved and I knew
 I had to run away and get down on my knees and pray
 That they'd go away

 But still they begin
 Needles and pins
 Because of all my pride
 The tears I gotta hide..................

Yes, I was kind of hiding.....outside the pub myself.

Great Night

2005-03-20T22:07:00.000-08:00

Last night Angel and I met second time since January
We really had a wonderful time sharing the night together.
We chated many things, what she surprised me was - there were so many things we shared in common.
Before that, I thought we are living in two different worlds of different values in mentality. I think I am damned wrong!
We chated until 3 am in the morning...
I sent her home
She kissed on my cheek and then said good bye
This left me confuse again..
I guessed she just treated me like a foreigner with open-minded mentality.....well, not all western people do this way.

2005-03-04T12:28:00.000-08:00

The nights are lonely the days are so sad I just keep thinking about the happy moment that we had I'm missin you and nobody knows it but me A million words couldnt' say how I feel And 50 years from now I'll be loving you still You just need to know my love for you is real

2005-03-03T12:29:00.000-08:00

I first became your friend. I got to know you. I was in love. This couldn't be true. Whenever you're in sight, You're all that's on my mind. I'll always look for you, Then I will find. As I learned even more about you, I kept falling for you. My knees began to shake. I wish you felt the same way too. I feel so bad, Every time you're hanging out with another guy, I'm shocked and jealous, It makes me want to cry. This was a girl, I could always talk to. You would never judge me. No matter what we've been through. You are the most beautiful person, That I have seen upon this day, You always spread joy, In a wonderful way. Whenever you get a new date, I try to be happy too, But how can I, If I'm not with you?

I thought I was getting over

2005-02-02T00:42:00.000-08:00

The worst thing in life is sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see her smile, you suddenly relized you're just pretending you're over her to ease the pain of knowing she will never be yours.

Too Many Nights

2005-02-01T06:39:00.000-08:00

Have gone to BW pubs night after night these days as though it is almost 7 day a week 30 days a month. Took a sentimental song and a beer and made me feel better. This shadow of pain hangs over me and I almost can't breath. This has been bogging me down since 9/17/2004. I thought I was free but I am not now.....Do you really know how how much I feel? Do you really think it is not a matter anymore to me? I dun think you have any idea how bad I feel, as I always pretend to smile.

I am almost a man of no heart and no soul. I dunno where my heart is...probbaly it is gone to somewhere and get stolen by someone. I try to call back my heart but it would not listen. I am not supposed to love you,I am not supposed to care,I am not supposed to live my life,wishing you were there.I am not supposed to wonder,where you are or what you do but I just can't help myself.
In the past, I was tough to take anything. I could depart and go separate ways and leave you totally alone. This time, I failed my attempt no matter how hard I tried.

I pray God to set me free and recall my heart. I can't afford to come to BW and drinks all nights. I can't do this anymore. I never expect this could last these long!!! It has been 6 months already and I still can't get you out of my head. I dun blame you at all. It is all my fault.

9,999,999

2005-01-30T09:17:00.000-08:00

I can't remember which day....Angel and I met first time after several months.
She showed up 1st in the BW and I was late. It was about like 7:00pm...
I finally took the Victoria Secret shower gel which I bought in the US for her. (The Victoria Secret shower gel sat on my table for more than 5 months. She brought me a wine which she bought in Italy.

Well, the 1st thing she wanted to explain to me was - she actually got a boy friend few months ago....Oh boy..!!! I almost fall off from my chair. I tried to remain calm but my heart was not.

I don't understand why she did not disclose to me all these last year.....

This reminded me a song called 9,999,999

The sun didn't shine this morning
It's been raining the whole day through
Suddenly without warning
You found somebody new
That's when the first tear came
Falling from my eyes
I'm beginning to feel the pain
Seeing nothing but clouds in the sky

Chorus :
Got 9,999,999 tears to go
And then I don't know if I'll be over you
When I be over you

You're out tonight with your new love
I'm far far from your mind
Trying to get over your new love
Could take a whole lifetime
I can't believe you could want anybody else
So no one could take my place
At least that's what I've been telling myself
As the tears fall down my face